Day 331: Stuck In The Middle With You

I’m startng to think I don’t necessarily belong with people my own age.

I’m in San Francisco with Mr. Wondeful’s mom visiting her son and his fiance.

While we’re hanging out I find myself more connected with her than him… even though he is a year younger than me, and she is decades older.

I don’t quite understand what is going on with me. If I’m not dating 26 year olds, I’m hanging out with the 50 + crowd.

I’m not exactly sure how it happened. I’ve had an older friend for quite a while, but I feel like I’m getting more and more connections with more and more older women.

Sure I realize I’m not getting any younger, but I haven’t made it to 40 yet, so seriously why am I hanging out with the senior crowd?

I shouldn’t give them a bad wrap, because I wouldn’t be spending time with them if I didn’t enjoy it… and I do! So maybe there’s something wrong with me? While I feel like a 26 year old stuck in a 39 year olds body somewhere, somehow I’m still hanging out with women 20 years my senior. But they are the most fun group of women I know!

Maybe I’m older than I think I am, an old soul if you will, that, or I’ve just found the youngest old people in my little corner of the world.

I do have to say I have a love affair with San Francisco. What’s not to love, the culture is fantastic and I love hippies.

So much so that my host offered to buy myself and his mother a hippie bag as a token of their appreciation.

As much as I like to say I’m a hippie, I enjoy being a conformist hippie. I like playing the part with my brown leather hobo bag and aviator Ray Bans, not a hand made bag made in Nepal.

Although I do appreciate the sentiment behind it all, and I do love the bag, I’m not sure how much I will use it.

All that aside I am absolutely loving my life right now. Sure it could be better with someone beside me to share all of these fantastic little experiences, but everything just seems to ‘fit’ right now.

I enjoy being able to take off and do whatever I want, when I want without having to answer to anyone. I know this is a luxury I won’t have forever… or at least I hope I won’t have forever.

I’m sure I could have taken this girls trip if I was in a relationship, but I’m also quite positive it would have a different ‘vibe’.

Being here in this way is perfect. The cool ocean breeze, paired with the smells and sounds of the city is the perfect combination of everything. It’s like every sensory perception has been touched.

I had an amazing day. I smile a lot and it was genuine, that may not sound like a lot to most people but to me its something that’s been greatly missing in my life.

I felt like I was truly living again, and I liked it! I’m so happy to know that I can feel this way again.


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