Day 315: Makeout magic

I’m still trying to catch up on my sleep from last weekend… and I thought today would be the answer.

Unfortunately I didn’t get to bed until 3am…. again…. and I was up at 1030. I’m not complaining, no one drug me out and put a gun to my head, I had a great time, I am just starting to realize my age.

I could have slept all day long, but it wasn’t going to happen.

I had to run errands, and take care of a few things before I head out of town again this weekend.

I went to check on my phone about an hour after I woke up and there was a text from Starbucks guy. Why is it the ones you want to text are never the ones who do?

I haven’t heard from Fargo since he left on Friday, which is probably a red flag I should take into consideration. If he was really very interested I would have heard something.

I had a bit of an unspokesn deal with myself that if he didn’t text on the 4th I would write him off, but of course I haven’t done that. I am however, not going out of my way to contact him.

Not that the 4th has any special signifigance with us of course, but I think of it as a romantic holiday. That’s because Mr. Wonderful and I would plan a picnic and watch the fireworks go off over our heads. There is also something symbolic about fireworks and the sparks of romance.

I know its a stretch and I shouldn’t make that connection with a guy I barely know, but I also know myself and if I don’t put some boundaries in place for myself, I’ll end up dragging out whatever this is because of what I want it to be instead of what it is.

So far it is absolutely nothing more than a few G-rated booty calls, which is obviously not what I’m looking for.

I have to wonder how some women do it? They seem to have makeout magic. I have a few friends where something that started off as a makeout session ended in marriage, but that has never worked for me.

What starts as a makeout session for me always ends with a guy who just wants one thing, which I’m not interested in doing until I’m totally invested in the guy.

I know everyone is different and what works for one doesn’t work for everyone, but its still a little baffling. It’s one of the great mysteries of the universe.

Is there such a thing as great physical and mental chemistry all in one package?? I have to believe there is, I’ve felt it before, but can you find it again?

It took me 34 years to find it the first time, and I certainly don’t have that kind of time right now.


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