I emailed the might be gay guy today about getting together for our date.
I was supposed to email him last week when I got back into town, but I was so busy I couldn’t fit a happy hour in anywhere.
I know… I know… its a tough life I have… but it is my life at least for the moment.
I don’t ever remember being this busy in all my life. I guess establishing myself in the same city for 15 years really has started to pay off a little bit.
Anyway, I finally sent off the email today saying I could get together in a few days if he’s available.
So we’ll just have to wait and see. I know I keep calling him the might be gay guy, so you’re probably wondering why I even agreed to go out with him.
In fact, I wonder sometimes myself, but then again you never know who “the guy” might be unless you give them a chance, so that’s what I’m doing.
And obviously he’s not gay (or at least he doesn’t know it) if he asked me out.
All that said, of course I am cautiously optimistic… and a little concerned I’m going to dig myself into another hole like I did with Starbucks.
I have a problem thinking too much about what or why something isn’t going to work unless I’m already convinced it will. And that also gets me into trouble. When I think something is going to turn out a certain way and it doesn’t I get a little bummed out.
The Coffee Fairy said it best today “I need to think less. I’d be a lot happier”. I couldn’t agree more. Thinking gets me in trouble.
I always over think everything to make sure I have the best possible answer to every possible question, when in reality, if I just relaxed and ‘went with it’ I’d be much better off.
Which is probably why I always seem to do better with the guys I don’t think I care about. They’re the ones I don’t get worked up about, and I’m most like myself and vice versa.
Some of the best times I’ve had in my life were unplanned, and come from ‘real’ moments.
I’ll get to practice my new way of thinking… or I guess I should say NOT thinking in a few days.